Devotional | Desperate Faith


“Just then a woman who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak. She said to herself, “If I only touch his cloak, I will be healed.”

Jesus turned and saw her. “Take heart, daughter,” he said, “your faith has healed you.” And the woman was healed at that moment” (Matthew 9:20 – 22 NIV)

A woman finds herself in desperate need of a Beloved savior, one who will remove the agony of the bleeding she has been suffering from. She believes deep within that there is only one who can do this for her. Jesus stands among a crowd on His way to heal a once sick little girl who has passed away. The woman is sure within her heart that this man, a man with a heart of mercy and compassion, will certainly care enough to heal her as well. Without hesitation, she reaches towards the hem of His cloak, trusting in the overflow of healing, love and grace that pours out from the heart of Jesus. He feels power leave Him, He is aware that someone has believed, someone has reached out in faith, and He does not withhold the goodness of the Father from this woman. He replies, “take heart.” Jesus wants our hearts to be strengthened by His grace, to be encouraged by the goodness of who He is. He heals the woman, and is moved by her faith as He also states, “your faith has healed you.”

I felt Holy Spirit remind me of this story randomly throughout the week. I was meditating upon what it means to live with a desperate heart, a heart that is in need and yet, full of faith, trusting in the goodness of the Father. This story I believe, paints us a beautiful picture of trust in the unseen. As I was re – reading this passage, I closed my eyes, longing to understand the woman’s heart. I asked Jesus, “Why did she do what she did?” I felt the gentle whisper of His heart reveal to mine that she was being intentional. She was stepping out, placing herself near the feet of the one who is her healer, trusting not in her own strength but in His. She knew He was the only one she needed.

There are times in my life when I reach out to touch the hem of His cloak. I pull and press into the goodness of who He is. I believe the Lord is moved by the decision made to depend on Him, believing that apart from Him we have nothing, and that truly, He is our everything, the only source of life. He is the one that we are to reach out to, knowing that our hearts will be strengthened as we make the decision to pursue His goodness. He will surely meet our needs. There is not one need in our lives that goes unseen. I long to be a woman whose first response in a time of desperation, is to reach out to grab the feet of my Beloved, knowing that He alone will provide. Where is your hand reaching? What is your heart pulling towards in times of desperation? I believe the Lord is longing for our hearts to reach towards one thing, and in that we will be surprised and moved by the captivating beauty, affection and grace of our Beloved. We need to have a desperate, and surrendered heart, a heart that will reach out for Him, trusting that He will respond to our need.

The goodness of our Father does not stop. Even now He is pouring out the beauty of who He is upon us. He is revealing to our hearts what He feels and thinks, and He delights in sharing this. We were created to know the heart of our Father, it is not something that is hidden from us. He pulls us into His heart and invites us to find our home within Him. In His heart our home is made, and in His heart we will be satisfied.