Journey of a Songbird

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Worship is the only reasonable response to the glory and grandeur of God. We exist only for Him. It’s our highest calling as believers to be completely fascinated and captivated by His beauty and out of that, respond in loving adoration for Him.

Mat 6:6 “When you pray, go into your room, and when you have shut the door, pray to your Father who is in the secret place; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you openly.”

Worship is the only reasonable response to the glory and grandeur of God. We exist only for Him. It’s our highest calling as believers to be completely fascinated and captivated by His beauty and out of that, respond in loving adoration for Him.

Rephrased, “I see you and I know you and everything you do matters to Me”. I believe the majority of those called as prophetic singers will go unnoticed and serve in small houses of prayer or congregations. There are so many with this calling and not everyone is going to be the next Kim Walker and have that platform but whether you are singing in front of 2 people of 2 thousand, it’s all the same to the Lord. We are called to minister before the eyes of One. You are one voice, a part of the body that sings corporately the endless songs of worship before His throne. Whether [you sing] on or off a stage, before people or not, He will reward you for your faithfulness to keep SINGING through it all.

Whether [you sing] on or off a stage, before people or not, He will reward you for your faithfulness to keep SINGING through it all.

“God is moved by faithfulness…Talent does not wow God. Neither do big crowds.” -Anna Blanc

This statement has changed my life in many ways. Here’s a brief personal story of why. When I first started singing 7 years ago it came naturally to me, even though I hadn’t grown up doing music. My talent got me noticed and before I knew it, I was singing and leading worship consistently every week. I really loved what I was doing but I hadn’t yet cultivated a place of intimacy with the Lord. I was sincere but immature. I learned to love praises of man. Then the Lord took me on a very humbling journey; ridding me of pride and sweetly refocusing my gaze and heart on Him alone. I had only been singing for about 3 years when I injured my voice (that’s a whole other story) and I almost had to completely stop singing for good.

God isn’t wowed by my talent, He already knows the gifts He gave me! And those gifts aren’t even for me, but for the body of Christ.

For the past 4 years I’ve struggled vocally and have been in pain on and off. I’m significantly better now than I was years ago and [I'm] still believing the Lord for full restoration! Around that same time I left home to attend the International House of Prayer University from 2011-2013 in Kansas City. It was in those years while being at IHOPKC with a damaged voice that I learned how to worship from my heart and not get distracted by or cling to a title, a name or talent. I’m being really honest in saying this, but I used to sit in the prayer room and look at the singers on stage and be so jealous of their “perfect voices” and mad at God because I had no voice and therefore in my mind ” NO identity or value”. If only I could have my voice back then everything would be okay, I would think to myself, but the Lord was teaching me something far greater than I knew. I now look back and cherish those years so much! Those days when I learned that God isn’t wowed by my talent, He already knows the gifts He gave me! And those gifts aren’t even for me, but for the body of Christ. He wanted my heart, to be fully in love and devoted to Him. He wanted faithfulness. He didn’t care about who I sang with or how many people I sang in front of; that wasn’t the point, the point was always Him.

Demotion: The invitation is not to step back and be alone, but step back and be with Him! Over time, I began to see the thorns hedging me in a beautiful space where I get to give Him my heart; fully opened up to Him. And just as I began to get comfortable in that season of hiddenness, He thrusts me into a season of promotion and in the spotlight again. And promotion is just as much of a test as demotion!

So to finish the story….

I did get my voice back and I did sing again and yes it’s still a struggle at times but He’s been faithful to my heart through the whole process. I also learned how much the enemy hates God’s songbirds and prophetic singers and attempts to take them out at all cost and to discourage them from opening up their mouths to sing (that’s another [post] for another time). Which leads me to say this; For every day that I lead a worship set and sing in the prayer room, encountering His heart, there are at least 2 days that I legitimately question what I am doing and why I’m doing it. Why? you may ask...

love is a choice not mainly just a feeling. Therefore, love is obedience to the Father and that’s what pleases Him (John 14:15). And when you really love someone you constantly want to please and honour them. 

Well, first of all love is a choice not mainly just a feeling. Therefore, love is obedience to the Father and that’s what pleases Him (John 14:15). And when you really love someone you constantly want to please and honour them. So yes, there are times that I absolutely want to be sleeping in my bed at home, but I CHOOSE to make Him a priority and so I show up once again to my morning set just to be with Him and love on Him. And secondly, it’s just plain hard work. There is a cost that comes with the commitment to keeping a prayer room going and in being sent to the nations to start burning rooms unto His return. It’s all great and exciting when you first start and realize your calling as a prophetic voice… but then it gets hard.

The biggest thing I’ve learned over the years is always have a YES in my heart. The beauty of being a prophetic singer/ musician and one who is keeping night and day prayer is you get to constantly have your heart open before the Lord in surrender. You GET TO demonstrate your love to Him, daily on and off the stage. You only have but a moment in this life to do that. Treasure it and whatever you do don’t stop singing. Singing keeps the heart alive and unoffended. 

ArticlesMelanie Fraser