Testimony | Rotten Fruit


God uses the small things to lead us into our destiny.

“I tell you for certain that a grain of wheat that falls on the ground will never be more than one grain unless it dies. But if it dies, it will produce lots of wheat.” (John 12:24 CEV)

“How are you?” was the question I was asked at one of the first cell group meetings I had ever attended. Though a normal and expected question, I couldn’t respond. I started to shake and tears ran down my face. That was about 7 years ago.

Since that time, God has been working on my heart. Gently, patiently and kindly working through any issues. The beauty of this is that it’s not an uncommon testimony. As He healed me, I was also allowed to practise, give and lead under the blessing and grace of my church and cell group leaders.

"Nothing that we do in His name is ever insignificant."

I am now a home-grown Catch The Fire missionary working in Zambia. I never thought it would be possible or probable that God had a plan for that broken girl in tears on a couch, but He did! Because of the support of Catch The Fire leaders, intercessors and influencers, I’m now living out a part of the destiny God has for me. It didn’t start big—it started with serving hospitality at our campus church—but after serving locally, God blessed me to serve internationally.

In the humblest way possible, I see myself as fruit of our church. The preaching I’d heard there about evangelism ignited my heart. Watching leaders like Duncan Smith and Darrin Clark going out and doing it inspired me. Being released to lead within our campus church and seeing God show up in my weaknesses proved to me that I would never be alone. I am the fruit of the prayers of our church.

I was given a vision some time back of fruit falling from a tree and rotting in the soil—a bit of a bummer, but take a moment to think about it. When fruit falls and dies, the seeds inside have a chance to get into the soil and grow. These last three years in Zambia have been difficult. I have had to die to myself and let things die in God’s hands in order to let new things progress. But as I have done so, what I once saw as only fruit, has become planted seeds and now, they can finally multiply.

"We might feel small, but that’s just our feeling, it’s not how God sees us."

It is still surprising in some ways that God would use someone like me to expand His Kingdom. When I didn’t know my identity in Him, I felt small and broken. But that didn’t matter in His eyes. Through His strength and because of the support of the body of Christ—people like you—I have been able to begin to fulfill the destiny God has for me. I encourage you to do the same knowing you are never alone because of Him and because of the body of Christ around us. Nothing is impossible for our God.

Nothing that we do in His name is ever insignificant. A prayer, preparing coffee, sharing a prophetic word or even a kind smile. We might feel small, but that’s just our feeling, it’s not how God sees us. We might not see the results directly, but it doesn’t mean that they aren’t there. He makes even the smallest of seeds grow.

What seeds do you have in your hands?
What seeds can you plant today?

For more information about the projects in Zambia, please visit www.hope-ignited.com